My brain is really super lost and disrupted now...
I really cant bear with the actuarial subject i m doing...
No matter how hard i try and try i still have 0 knowledge in my brain.
And i m tired and sick of complaining. After talking with my mum on last friday, i decide to drop the subject and will start some subject for majoring accounting by next sem. I dun wan to try study and learn anymore, put any effort in this subject. I know i will never get any return for all my hardwork. I will still FAIL the subject.

So i went and talk with the admin staff of the faculty today about this dropping. Aikss.. i was told the dateline of dropping is over and if it will makes no different to drop by now or i continue the grade will still stay fail. Haiz.. i really lost and no idea now... The problem for now is the marks of fail will be there where if i continue i can make a difference in the marks where the fail will be in some higher marks if i manage to earn them in the final instead of my current mark accumulated from the quizes. Ogosh.. wat am i suppose to do!!!

=( dinner time.. F*** off..