I am so depending

Lonely, bored is the feeling of mine here daily sitting in front of my laptop as i get home. Home sick?? i guess so. i just cant give any reason to deny for this moment. I always think i am good and independent enough and leaving home would not be a problem. My thinking seems to be wrong. I am missing the noise of home. The face of my family. My time with my brothers, fighting, arguing moment. Hahaha...

And my lovely brother is leaving to UK today. So, we wont have chance to meet when i get home during December break. Both us finally get the opportunity we dreaming and hope that we been holding since young. Seems like we really grow up now and its time to be independent. I just have this feeling and thought this moment suddenly because i dun think i am actually independent even i had spend 1 and half semester here. But dont u think human cant just be totally independent in live. We just cant live alone! But friend around did look so tough and independent here. I am so admired on them and JEALOUS! So.. can i be like them?? Can i?? haha... i dun think so!!!

I need to start finding my dream and ambition. stop dreaming around. Consider my path of life in the future. Make the fullest use of my opportunity studying in sydney. Start deciding on my own, be confident. Stop begging help from friends. Shit.. so moody again. eh.. I must be optimistic!
Whatever, all least should get some help for 3616 asign 1st for now. Keekeke..

Good luck lai! Hope u can get a good life in UK. Not something like mine! =p Hopefully u can hold your dream tight and achieve it. I will always feel proud of u! Hehehe....

I really need to balance up my study and life. Still feeling hard to put more proper effort in my study. I know very well my problem but i just cant control myself. Feel really guilty sometimes. Nobody can actually help but myself. I clearly know this. So, good luck Thiam Leong. Hahaha....

Anyway, the great and satisfaction life i am having lately is just awesome. Despite the guilt, i really enjoying non-stop. I still have quite some works to be accomplish at this moment but i just cant concentrate myself on them. Whatever..

Suddenly kind of missing my family.. zzz
Shall call back.