Lonely, bored is the feeling of mine here daily sitting in front of my laptop as i get home. Home sick?? i guess so. i just cant give any reason to deny for this moment. I always think i am good and independent enough and leaving home would not be a problem. My thinking seems to be wrong. I am missing the noise of home. The face of my family. My time with my brothers, fighting, arguing moment. Hahaha...
And my lovely brother is leaving to UK today. So, we wont have chance to meet when i get home during December break. Both us finally get the opportunity we dreaming and hope that we been holding since young. Seems like we really grow up now and its time to be independent. I just have this feeling and thought this moment suddenly because i dun think i am actually independent even i had spend 1 and half semester here. But dont u think human cant just be totally independent in live. We just cant live alone! But friend around did look so tough and independent here. I am so admired on them and JEALOUS! So.. can i be like them?? Can i?? haha... i dun think so!!!
I need to start finding my dream and ambition. stop dreaming around. Consider my path of life in the future. Make the fullest use of my opportunity studying in sydney. Start deciding on my own, be confident. Stop begging help from friends. Shit.. so moody again. eh.. I must be optimistic!
Whatever, all least should get some help for 3616 asign 1st for now. Keekeke..
Good luck lai! Hope u can get a good life in UK. Not something like mine! =p Hopefully u can hold your dream tight and achieve it. I will always feel proud of u! Hehehe....
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Sunday, September 16, 2007
I really need to balance up my study and life. Still feeling hard to put more proper effort in my study. I know very well my problem but i just cant control myself. Feel really guilty sometimes. Nobody can actually help but myself. I clearly know this. So, good luck Thiam Leong. Hahaha....
Anyway, the great and satisfaction life i am having lately is just awesome. Despite the guilt, i really enjoying non-stop. I still have quite some works to be accomplish at this moment but i just cant concentrate myself on them. Whatever..
Suddenly kind of missing my family.. zzz
Shall call back.
Anyway, the great and satisfaction life i am having lately is just awesome. Despite the guilt, i really enjoying non-stop. I still have quite some works to be accomplish at this moment but i just cant concentrate myself on them. Whatever..
Suddenly kind of missing my family.. zzz
Shall call back.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Best lovely friends
Evelyn = the pretty birthday girl.
So.. i had a wonderful yesterday night.
But the birthday dinner yesterday for evelyn seems not that perfect for everyone.I hope it's not true and i just feel it wrongly.
Anyway it was a really good and great night for me after so long wanted a dinner again with those 1st knew bunch of girls in sydney. Friends of mine should know i am kind of easy going person and always "anything" in making decision.(hope i am right) I just wan all friends to enjoy when we hanging out so i would rather let the others decide. Somehow maybe i should help decide and plan more for yesterday night dinner. Although it really seems weird when sometime me a only guys hang out with 4 girls. I just want to be same to be with all friends, guy or girl. I just enjoy being with people and making up some jokes and games to bright up our life.
Just for you to know, majority of close friends of mine in UNSW so far are female and another group of friend from UTS are male. So, to survive in UNSW i did need able to cope and stay with those girls. Hehehe... And i hope my appearance around u girls dun make any bad.
So all these bunch of friends in UNSW are those more "guai"?? type. Haha.. wat's the word. Hmm... maybe say those having more discipline life person. So after dinner around 930 some still have other plan and others need to go back.
Since is still early for me, i decide so go chill at Tim house. We then have some games with drink. And i then met up evan to catch bus back together around 12.
So..
17 August a nice day for me after all. Having Great best lovely accompanies.
Saturday, August 4, 2007
Week 2 ended
So my holidays ended 2 weeks ago and this mean the week 2 of uni ended.
Did nothing much during the hols beside being a really bad boy. Nvr able to discipline myself to do any beneficial stuff in the hols.
Anyway, what past is gone. And i am back to uni and study life. Still slacking all this time even the uni started until today. It get so hard for me to start. Never get myself prepare for any class i went for this 2 weeks.
And for all u people in uni course now should understand the speed of uni and we just cant get slack and away from classes too far. There will be hell lot for u to catch up by then. I actually not even look through the course outline till today.
I really feel so hard to sit and study. Haha.. and thank god i finished my 1st week account lecture and i get started!!!! Hopefully i can persist and be consistent. still got other 3 subject to catch up.. Sien..
I really worry on my own attitude here to get myself discipline. I am no more a small boy and so deserve my freedom and right to decide my life now. And i really hope i wouldn't disappointed my parent who send me so far here. ARRRR!!!! life is just tough. And i think the subject for this semester should be fine for me and hopefully so. ok... i am out. i must major WORK HARD + minor play hard this semester. Get both done..
Did nothing much during the hols beside being a really bad boy. Nvr able to discipline myself to do any beneficial stuff in the hols.
Anyway, what past is gone. And i am back to uni and study life. Still slacking all this time even the uni started until today. It get so hard for me to start. Never get myself prepare for any class i went for this 2 weeks.
And for all u people in uni course now should understand the speed of uni and we just cant get slack and away from classes too far. There will be hell lot for u to catch up by then. I actually not even look through the course outline till today.
I really feel so hard to sit and study. Haha.. and thank god i finished my 1st week account lecture and i get started!!!! Hopefully i can persist and be consistent. still got other 3 subject to catch up.. Sien..
I really worry on my own attitude here to get myself discipline. I am no more a small boy and so deserve my freedom and right to decide my life now. And i really hope i wouldn't disappointed my parent who send me so far here. ARRRR!!!! life is just tough. And i think the subject for this semester should be fine for me and hopefully so. ok... i am out. i must major WORK HARD + minor play hard this semester. Get both done..
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
My result was out last thursday and i only know after shazwi call and tell me. But was out that evening with friends for dinner and movie- Harry porter . So din get to check 1st hand. Anyway the result wasnt tat good overall but got a really big surprise by passing my actuarial statistic 2002. And it definitely enough for everything. I never even dream of passing this subject as i really cant do in the exam. Anyway even with the pass i never gona to continue majoring actuarial.
Harry porter 5 was one of the worst show i ever watch in sydney. Haha.. i believe most people will agree with me. Maybe the previous was just too good or the story had to be film in this part was rather suck.
Start too feel sick on saturday as my usual problem sore throat is back. =(
And getting fever as well. After taking panadol for 2 day the ill i still dont seems to recover. So have to waste money to go for doctor again. Haiz.. my wallet is bleeding as well. Hahaha...
Anyway with the antibiotic suggested by the doctor, i m kind of well dy by today. So at least the money worth spending. Since feeling better today, i decide to go Eastgarden and hang around there as i never been there but often hear from friend and for some fresh air as well rather sitting at home hiding in the room. But after walking for some time only i start to feel weak just becoz i m actually not fully well yet. And feeling abit hungry as i have not taken my lunch yet. So, i walk around the food court to get some food. As i was queuing, i actually feel some1 touch my shoulder but though i might just being blur due to the sick and so lazy to bother. Until i heard a familiar sweet voice. Haha.. so shock for me .
Its Evelyn, a nice, cute girl i knew in sydney. Suppose to have meet her ytd with another friend if i wasnt sick. Then i realise this is the place she use to say she working. Been really long time since we last meet. Since the actuarial exam. Haha... hmm.. i think she did look different. But i cant tell out how. lolx.. of i just still sick or blur. Haha.. kk.. dinner time.. bye!
Harry porter 5 was one of the worst show i ever watch in sydney. Haha.. i believe most people will agree with me. Maybe the previous was just too good or the story had to be film in this part was rather suck.
Start too feel sick on saturday as my usual problem sore throat is back. =(
And getting fever as well. After taking panadol for 2 day the ill i still dont seems to recover. So have to waste money to go for doctor again. Haiz.. my wallet is bleeding as well. Hahaha...
Anyway with the antibiotic suggested by the doctor, i m kind of well dy by today. So at least the money worth spending. Since feeling better today, i decide to go Eastgarden and hang around there as i never been there but often hear from friend and for some fresh air as well rather sitting at home hiding in the room. But after walking for some time only i start to feel weak just becoz i m actually not fully well yet. And feeling abit hungry as i have not taken my lunch yet. So, i walk around the food court to get some food. As i was queuing, i actually feel some1 touch my shoulder but though i might just being blur due to the sick and so lazy to bother. Until i heard a familiar sweet voice. Haha.. so shock for me .
Its Evelyn, a nice, cute girl i knew in sydney. Suppose to have meet her ytd with another friend if i wasnt sick. Then i realise this is the place she use to say she working. Been really long time since we last meet. Since the actuarial exam. Haha... hmm.. i think she did look different. But i cant tell out how. lolx.. of i just still sick or blur. Haha.. kk.. dinner time.. bye!
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